What is Love? Though it is the most precious gift in all the world; it also is a destructive weapon that can be easily manipulated. Don't get me wrong, I am a great supporter of the positive aspects of it. I have been in love before. Twice, I guess. But what happens when it is put to its greatest test? The one whom you love breaks your heart and throws the pieces at your feet as you stand in a river of rushing emotions, expecting you to swim and retrieve the pieces and unite them all back together. What about those pieces that got away? The ones that were carried too quickly with the current and are never recovered. In this case, it is easy to say that a person is never the same again. There are those awkward edges sticking into your chest cavity that will seemingly be there forever. I mean, of course then you must think ahead and say to yourself, "well that just means there is someone better out there." But lets face it, that is much easier said than done. None-the-less, you try to find this person. Maybe a little faster than what's possible. You go on dates, second dates, leading these people on just because you don't want to give up on finding what you're looking for, knowing all along that it is not going to work out. You feel terrible about leading them on, but you can't seem to stop. Don't deny it. We both know it happens. Yes, it is a crumby thing to do, but its human nature. We crave this feeling of being wanted. Now, I have been on many dates lately; each one ending with a "you're a great guy, and I love being your friend, but that's all it will ever be." For me, that is what hurts the most; I can not stand to hurt people. I believe that is why I may have an issue with leading people on. And maybe that's why it hit me like a ton of bricks when my relationship ended - I'm not used to giving that treatment, so why would I receive it?
So this leads me to my question:
What happens when you FINALLY get over your last love and start moving on, and then he comes back to you? Do you pretend like nothing happened and pick up where you left off? Do you make him work for your affection again? Or do you say, "sorry dude, too little, too late." I mean, what about all these great guys who come out of the wood work after the fact? Do you continue giving them chances? Or do you have them hitch-hike it right on out? Either way, someone gets hurt.
